words are just words but the feeling behind it is what make those words matter. not everyone can feel it.

Wednesday, January 18, 2012

The Upfront Truth

Seeing the morning light
Couldn't help myself to call
Suddenly I was so brave to fight
Not afraid to back down or even fall
I was the one who loved you first.


Your words danced in my mind
A lullaby to mend my aching heart 
It was the love I wish I could find
Did not cross my mind we would part
But oh, I was the one who loved you first.


I was emotionally lost in space
The love you gave back drained me
My head was not thinking straight
My heart has gone haywire
I was indeed the one who loved you first.


Every part of myself had me thinking 
We would last 'till forever
But oh, it slipped my mind
I was the one who loved you first.


My head was filled with whimsical thoughts
Not knowing that you were actually confused
Thinking the love I had for you is finally sought
Though I have tried, I am still not your muse
Oh, I was the one who loved you first.


My mistake for thinking we actually had a shot
I promised myself I would not feel this way again
I'll build some walls and put up some fort
To protect myself from feeling this pain again.


It hurts me so, it hurts me so
To be in love all alone
It hurts me so, it hurts me so
As I was the one who loved you first.



Wednesday, January 11, 2012

Behind closed doors

I took a step back and let myself see things. I've noticed how people has changed. Some for the better, some for the--oh, well. I took a million steps back and let myself see me. Oh, how I've changed. There are some of my changes that I am proud with but there are some of them, that I am not so proud with. Forgive me, for I am still learning. I am still searching. 

Looking at how people has changed has brought me delight. The people that were once very liberal are being more conservative nowadays. The people who I've once thought of no hope of changing; has changed. So you see, people do sometimes change. And it's a pleasant sight to see that most of them has changed for the better. Sure, their past might not be as clean as yours but their future is still clean.

So peeps, who are we to judge someone based on their past? What give us the right to say that we are more superior than the rest when we don't even know what's going to happen tomorrow? What give us the right to judge someone based on their actions now? What give us the right to stereotype people based on their attitude in public? What give us the right to judge and condemn someone? Tell me, what and who give us the right to do so?

'Cause as I have now see, people do change. So yeah, I might have to believe again in giving people a second chance 'cause we all make mistakes. But most importantly, none of us can really judge someone as we only see what they chose to show us. You don't know what's going on in their lives behind their closed doors. We'll never know. Only He knows. So yeah, Let's just leave the judging part to Him now, shall we? :)


Monday, January 9, 2012

Prettiest friend

Talk less, listen more. Expect less, give more. Stop searching, stop telling. Just let things be. Be patient. Be extremely patient. Trust one or two, not everyone. Don't expect anything from anyone. Don't hate, keep loving.

Sunday, January 8, 2012

you're just lucky I didn't shoot back.

Bulletproof by LaRoux 

Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet
I won't let you in again
The messages I tried to send
My information's just not going in

I'm burning bridges shore to shore
I break away from something more
I'm not turned off to love until it's cheap
Been there, done that, messed around
I'm having fun, don't put me down
I'll never let you sweep me off my feet

This time baby,
I'll be, bulletproof
This time baby,
I'll be, bulletproof

I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
To walk away from something when it's dead
Do, do, do, your dirty words
Come out to play when you are hurt
There are certain things that should be left unsaid

Tick, tick, tick, tick on the watch
And life's too short for me to stop
Oh, baby, your time is running out
I won't let you turn around
And tell me now I'm much too proud
All you do is fill me up with doubt

This time baby,
I'll be, bulletproof

Friday, January 6, 2012

Love....


Keeps me delusional
Keeps me blinded
Keeps me chanting
Of pointless words
Keeps me echoing
That one single name.

Sunday, December 25, 2011

winks

Fresh start. Sometimes, it is best to let go of things that's keeping you down. Friends, lovers. All; come and go. Though, there's one person I would like to pull back up. No strings, no feelings. I just want to be friends again. Is that even possible?


Monday, December 19, 2011

She walks in beauty

She walks in beauty, like the night
Of cloudless climes and starry skies;
And all that's best of dark and bright
Meet in her aspect and her eyes:
Thus mellow'd to that tender light
Which heaven to gaudy day denies.


One shade the more, on ray the less,
Had half impair's the nameless grace
Which waves in every raven tress,
Or softly lightens o'er her face;
Where thoughts serenely sweet express
How pure, how dear their dwelling-place.


And on that cheek, and o'er that brow, 
So soft, so calm, yet eloquent,
The smiles that win, the tints that glow,
But tell of days in goodness spent,
A mind at peace with all below,
A heart whose love is innocent!


-She walks in beauty by George Gordon, Lord Byron.